I am not a geek.
// July 30th, 2009 // 10 Comments » // FURY!, Random Stuff
Tonight has been a special evening. One in which I have taken part in PowerPoint Karaoke, once in which I have heckled a lot, one in which I have drank a little, one in which I have been told “the group wants me to leave”, and one in which I’ve met a cool girl.
But it’s also been a night where all that has come together in an epiphany moment where I realised that the group of people I’ve spent 2 years socialing with once a month really aren’t people that I’m that interested in socialising with at all.
Yes, there are people amongst them who I find interesting, and those who I genuinely like and maybe even love as friends and who I could sit with in a pub for large amounts of time and drink until merriment was not an issue. But then there are the rest of the people who are either a) too intelligent for me to have a meaningful conversation with, or b) they think they’re too intelligent for me to have a meaninful conversation with (in all but 1 case the latter). In either case I am now going to choose to not care. The truth is that one “easily offended” young lady has tonight led “the group” to want me to leave - either really, or jokingly - and that has annoyed me. And then I met a cool girl.
The cool girl was Mercedes who I have now known for weeks and has red hair and is awesome. And I feel completely good talking to her. I feel completely at ease and I don’t have to try with her. And then I realise that I don’t have to try with Gav, or Kirsty, or James, or Erica, or anyone else… And then I realise that the people at GeekUp are completely on the flip side of that, and apart from 2 people I really don’t know why I go… and then I realise that the fine line that I think I’ve done a good job of treading the last two years (between geeks and real people) is one I don’t want to tread any more.
So, I’m deciding right now, tipsy, that GeekUp is not for me anymore. And that while I’ll be sending out emails asking if people fancy a drink every now and then, the majority of GeekUp will be benefitting from not seeing my face again.
On the plus side, my Powerpoint Karaoke rocked again. I’m not really bad at the whole ad-libbing thing it seems. Wish I could pull it out of the bag in real presentations now.
